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Let’s Be Real Workshop with Mary Brill, LCSW

“Let”s Be Real”… How to Live an Authentic Life

Approved and highly recommended by Drs. Rose Kumar, MD, and Boris Matthews, PhD, LCSW

A workshop beginning September 7, 2018

 

You get to a point where the old life no longer works. It’s possible it never did. Maybe

you ask yourself, “what’s next?” The life that you’ve known no longer seems to fit. Or

something feels off and you wonder if you’re alone in feeling this way…

 

This group offers you an opportunity to open your heart, enliven your body, engage your

mind, and deepen @ soul level. The possibilities are limitless when group energy

collides with intent. It takes courage to express your dreams, desires, and what you

yearn for. It involves accepting support to bring your aspirations into form. It requires

clearing obstacles that get in your way.

 

This is a group to explore possibilities; to consider stretching your limits, to think outside

the box, to reflect on what needs to be released and to explore untapped potential.

 

I invite you to explore with us. I invite you to find the Real you.  Won’t you join us?

 

Dates: 9/7/18- 11/16/18

Day: 6 Fridays

Time: 10:30AM-12:30PM

Fee: $95/session

Register via email  –  Mary@brillcounseling.com

 

Mary Brill, LCSW is an experienced psychotherapist who uses her skills in problem-solving and mentoring to help people develop their inner resources. She has lead national and international seminars and tours focused on personal growth, dreams, feminine wisdom and spirituality. She is known for her unique ability to tame the inner critic and foster self-acceptance.  

How Our Relationship with Ourselves Impacts our Health

As a physician, I am a keen observer.  A good scientist observes what works, what doesn’t, as well as the outcomes of behaviors even when mechanisms seem elusive.  After 30 plus years of medical practice, I see common patterns underlying health and illness; patterns of thinking, feeling and behavior that have a powerful impact on how we live, why we get sick and how we can heal.  The level of meaning in one’s life affects one’s perspective and relationship to oneself, especially in times of stress and crisis. The search for meaning has been one of the most elusive yet important keys to happiness. It requires making a choice to live from this place.  I have often wondered why more of us don’t live from this perspective. If we did, our collective consciousness would be healthier, less violent, and more caring.

There is common ground among us humans.  We are creatures of habit. The vast majority of us resist change, align with the familiar and are not conscious of our relationship with ourselves.  We have all adapted to survive. We did this at the cost of our relationship to ourselves. How many people would choose growth and alignment with oneself over one’s relationships?  Often our relationships with others requires us to behave in ways they do, even if they are not healthy for us.  We become complicit with them at a cost to our health.  Pretty soon we live out of alignment with our inner guidance system and identify more with our adapted state than who we really are.  Given this survival-adaptation pattern, it is easy to see how our compromised relationship with ourselves can become the root cause of our illness. If our adapted choices normalize unhealthy diets, lack of self-care and materialism, we live from this thinking track.  Unlike parts of the world (1) where health, a connection to the natural world, and community is normalized, we place productivity above these values. Our self-worth has become based on materialism, even at the cost of how we really feel.  We currently live in a society which normalizes industrial food, denies a connection between food and health, and has little to no appreciation for balance and self-care. Our relationship to ourselves has been lost somewhere in the shuffle.

The most common excuse for lack of self-care that I hear is, “I have no time for me.”  We live in a culture where time spent not working at our job is seen as time wasted. How many times have I heard, “We are all going to die someday. If I get sick, I can be fixed by the medical system. I am happy just the way I am.”  It turns out we are not a very happy country. We rank 108/140 in the Happy Planet Index (2).  As far as our health is concerned, the US is the highest spender in healthcare (3) and the unhealthiest country in the world (4).  

In my opinion, the common denominator underneath these statistics boils down to our relationship with ourselves.  If we consider ourselves worthy of health, we would take the extra time to nourish ourselves, get regular exercise, seek meaning and limit our self-compromises.  In my practice, I offer simple yet powerful solutions that have yielded impressive results. A large majority of my patients have reversed their diseases, have more meaningful lives and have never been hospitalized.  

We have to develop a skill set and take the time to learn and understand how our choices have caused us to feel poorly or get sick.   When we begin to make healthier choices, we experience a different outcome and begin to feel more vital and reverse diseases. We can experience the inherent resilience and healing capacity of the body when we create a healthy body environment through changes in lifestyle. However, when we make healthy choices, we challenge our adaptations to unhealthy ones that have gained traction over time. It takes endurance to stay the course that reverses disease and restores our health.  This may sound simple, but this also sets off a cascade of tension in relationships we hold dear. We begin to uncover the complacency towards health underneath them. We come face to face with how we have adapted in these relationships. These are survival adaptations.  Challenging these make us feel vulnerable. So setting an intention to reclaim our health challenges us to live in the opposite direction of what is normalized which has traction and has led to our lethargy of living from a default position.

When seen this way, the majority of my patients choose health knowing that it will take courage and endurance to ‘swim upstream’.  Those who have experienced the brutality of our medical system for their chronic health conditions, never want to set foot in a hospital again.  Sometimes this is a great motivator itself. The pain of transformation is always less than the pain from complacency. Lifestyle becomes a series of conscious choices, arising from a desire to repair our relationship to ourselves and nourish and protect our bodies from the normalized perspective of our society. Most of the diseases in the U.S. are diseases of lifestyle (5).  Scientific evidence now shows that these can be reversed merely by the power of choosing to live differently.

It is startling to see how we are willing to compromise our health even for that which does not give us a sense of meaning.  If we have a positive relationship with ourselves, we would never compromise our health for our jobs, and we would have the courage to seek meaningful work.

So, before you stop at the fast-food drive-through, microwave a frozen food for dinner, or order a ‘take out’ from an unhealthy restaurant check in with yourself and see if saving time, taking a default position or adding unhealthy food to your body is what you are worthy of. If your answer is yes, you may want to consider healing your relationship to yourself. If your answer is ‘no’, you are the few Americans who will likely never get sick enough to be hospitalized and most likely will score higher on the happiness index (6). People who have healthy lifestyles (7) also exercise more and have more meaningful relationships.

How we choose to live effects not only us, but also people whose lives we touch.  This is the “Power of One”. If we want our society to be healthy, we must play our part in its transformation.  I would place healing our relationship to ourselves at the top of that list.

 

  1. https://www.bluezones.com/live-longer-better/#section-6
  2. http://happyplanetindex.org/countries/united-states-of-america
  3. http://www.commonwealthfund.org/publications/issue-briefs/2015/oct/us-health-care-from-a-global-perspective
  4. http://fortune.com/2016/11/17/health-care-us-survey/
  5. https://www.cdc.gov/chronicdisease/overview/index.htm
  6. https://apps.bluezones.com/en/happiness
  7. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4703222/

 

©April 2018 Kalpana (Rose) M. Kumar M.D., CEO and Medical Director, The Ommani Center for Integrative Medicine, Pewaukee, WI. Website: www.ommanicenter.com Author of Becoming Real: Reclaiming Your Health in Midlife. 2011, 2014 Medial Press

What Is the True Measure of Our Worth

“If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you.  

If you do not bring forth what is within you, what you do not bring forth will destroy you.”

~The Gospel According to Thomas

 

We are all products of our imprinting.  We are imprinted by our family systems as well as society at large.  If our parents accepted society’s values and lived from them, our sense of worth becomes aligned with those values.  Society’s definition of success is based on the degree of money and social status a person has (extrinsic worth), rather than who they are (intrinsic worth).   If our relationship with our self is defined by extrinsic worth, based on how productive, popular, and rich we are; who we are does not hold as much value relative to how much we have.  According to this perspective of worth we can easily fall prey to compromising our intrinsic worth in favor of our extrinsic worth. Pretty soon, we find ourselves sacrificing time with our loved ones, our health, as well as what gives us meaning.  Society considers this a worthy sacrifice.

The vast majority of people I see in my medical practice have experienced this.  They tell me they are unable to find time to exercise, cook meals, attend to the needs of their bodies as well as their inner life.  After a while, these compromises begin to erode our relationship to ourselves. As meaning is lost, symptoms of depression and anxiety begin to surface. Loss of meaning is bad for our immune system.  It is the worst kind of stress. If our symptoms are medicated and suppressed, we grow numb to them and lose the incentive to attend to their cause. A feeling of emptiness ensues and life takes on what I call “an auto-pilot existence.”  Our alignment with external values usurps our sense of self-worth. This erodes our relationship to the deep Self.

This is an example of Pavlovian conditioning.  Pavlov discovered that when a bell was rung as dogs were given food, they associated the sound of the bell with food.  After a while, when the bell was rung, although food was not given, they began to salivate. The dogs associated the sound of the bell with food.  Like Pavlov’s dogs, we are imprinted with external values when we are rewarded for our performance that offers a promise of money or social status.  By the time we leave home, we associate success and self-worth with external values. A majority of people live out this Pavlovian life track only to discover a deep emptiness within by mid-life.  Our inner self is unimpressed with money and status. The only values that satisfies it are those which honor who we are, our authentic self. The rewards for this are meaning and integrity, which always tops this list.  

Midlife brings powerful shifts in the tectonic plates between extrinsic and intrinsic values and worth. The physiological and biochemical changes underway in the body also herald major shifts in the deep psyche.  Our instinct begins to tell us that something in our life is amiss. Through these shifts, we are offered a chance to redirect our focus from external to internal. If the inner stirring required for realignment to the deep self is not heeded, we risk learning through a crisis, in the form of an illness, a failed relationship, or some form of loss. This is meant to be the wake-up call that facilitates the possibility for correcting our relationship with ourselves by aligning with authenticity. Common symptoms in midlife such as anxiety, depression, disturbed sleep, and a feeling of emptiness evoke a call for an alignment with intrinsic worth, one based on meaning and integrity.  

I have seen tens of thousands of patients who have shared their inner knowing that the deepest cause of their symptoms is a lack of meaning.  They have achieved success by society’s standards, only to find that they have compromised their connection to their authentic Self to accomplish this. Many have stayed in abusive relationships both personally and professionally, to uphold a façade, the value system they are entrained to live from. No matter how many accolades they receive, the emptiness continues to surface. External validation is merely a weak substitute for intrinsic worth.  This must be attended to, especially in midlife.

Society’s definitions of success and worth promote patriarchal values. These are attained through competition, compromise, and a sacrifice of what really matters.  Health, balance, self-care, and authenticity are all aligned with the Feminine Principle. The collective is caught up in achieving recognition from patriarchy at the cost of the Feminine.  Fortunately during midlife we have the opportunity to shift priorities from the former to the latter.

During this midlife passage, our inner life takes precedence over the outer, no matter how much material success we may have. We must leave our early imprints behind and live from the call of the deep Self.  There is a feeling of comfort here, even though the journey is difficult, as we find ourselves leaving family and people behind who we adapted to in order to belong. What we belonged to is the collective normalization of patriarchal values.  What we are returning to is our deep authentic Self. The intent to live in this manner reorganizes the platform of our value system. We begin to detach from what is impermanent and shallow and connect with what is authentic and eternal.

If we are lucky, our life will not cooperate with external definitions.  When we begin to listen to the inner call, life shifts tracks leaving the outer for the inner.  What may be lacking in externally defined value, we gain in a sense of meaning. Living from meaning requires us to sacrifice extrinsic value for intrinsic worth.  At the end of the day, our alignment with meaning is all that matters. This reflects our alignment with our authentic self. Living this way restores our feeling of self-worth, even when society rejects our movement into authenticity.

When we align with the Feminine Principle in midlife, we can reclaim health and balance.  This brings a level of integrity and contentment that no amount of external validation can provide. This process requires courage and consciousness and is a form of transformation that Carl Jung termed individuation.  Individuation is a responsibility and a journey we must all accept. It is only then that we can live from a place of true worth.

 

©March2018 Kalpana (Rose) M. Kumar M.D., CEO and Medical Director, The Ommani Center for Integrative Medicine, Pewaukee, WI. Website: www.ommanicenter.com Author of Becoming Real: Reclaiming Your Health in Midlife. 2011, 2014 Medial Press

An Antidote for These Patriarchal Times

Since the start of this year and all the chaos the patriarchy is causing, I am comforted by knowing what grounds and inspires me. A powerful antidote to the patriarchy is to nourish the Feminine.

What does that mean for a ‘sensitive’? (1)

I have known I was a sensitive since I was very young. It did not have a name, but I felt different. I felt more isolated, more removed from the norm; I couldn’t relate to people’s desire for money and power. I wasn’t jazzed by material things like most people. Poetry, color, beauty, and animals are what nourished me. I was fortunate to have grown up in India, a container of beauty and life itself for a sensitive, but the Feminine was not nourished there either — not in women. But it was palpable in the cultural energy, a paradox that left me lonely inside with a sense of what it was without an actual imprint in my psyche. The Feminine is hard to access when she is not modeled for us, or imprinted by parents, or normalized by culture.

We are all on our own right now, uncovering, discovering, and connecting to The Feminine part of ourselves in our own unique way. We feel connected and inspired when we feel it in each other as well. We can even feel this in our physical body – our breathing patterns change and we feel more settled and safe around people who are aligned with the Feminine Principle.  

This is what needs fanning — the glowing ember of Self that is deep inside, which glows for the most part, inconsistently, muffled by the voices of the ‘norm’ which are disconnected and out of touch with what is authentic and real. This ember needs to be set ablaze.

When I feel the need for solace (derived from the root, “solari,” meaning ‘to console’) in these times or anytime, I reach inside for what feels like ‘me’; the ‘me’ that has always shown up when the going gets rough, that is often hard to access, but is always courageously there in times of loss, separation, stress, or fear. Even if I can access this for a fleeting moment, it gives me the will to live again and to put one foot in front of the other.

Remember this part of you that is still here after all you have suffered, experienced, endured. This part of you is your true nature. If you can contact it, you can access the medicine that lives inside of you. Sometimes it requires you to be quiet, to be in nature, to be still, to enter the eye of the storm, or to breathe. It is the part that contains the ‘codes’ for your life’s path; the ‘why’ of being here. This is the most loyal part of you. It knows you by heart and it is your very faithful friend. It came in with you and will take you out. It is the authentic YOU.

Now more than ever, it is time to connect to this. This is the Feminine. She is calling you inside, to live her out into the world. She has powerful medicine that heals, restores, comforts and also consoles. She is where our true connections with each other lie.

Remember this today and maybe for a few minutes, tap into Her and feel what ‘me’ feels like for you.

I’ll be doing the same.

©Feb2018 Kalpana (Rose) M. Kumar M.D., CEO and Medical Director, The Ommani Center for Integrative Medicine, Pewaukee, WI. Website: www.ommanicenter.com Author of Becoming Real: Reclaiming Your Health in Midlife. 2011, 2014 Medial Press

Link:

https://ommanicenter.com/are-you-a-sensitive/

Shining Our Light in the Darkness; The Power of the #MeToo Movement (1)

No one can deny that there is a large societal ‘upchuck’ going on. Our shadow material has reached its tipping point and our individual and collective psyches can no longer contain it. Is this because the patriarchal shadow is amplified by our so-called political leaders? Is it because of their unabashed expression of misogyny and disdain for the Earth, the environment and the Feminine Principle? We cannot deny the precision of the timing and truth telling of women (and men) who have been assaulted and harassed. We can only hold our secrets inside for so long. Eventually, they need to be spoken, to prevent the concretion of disease in the psyche and body, when held inside for too long.

I have always had a problem with society normalizing sexual misconduct. In fact, this has been a theme for me personally. I seized the opportunity to fight for women’s equality in a health care system, was abandoned for not normalizing and adapting to the status quo, and have also been the victim of sexual assault. I too have held these secrets due to the absence of safe space to release them. I have tried to express them in many ways to many people, but to little avail. The only way I have somewhat effectively found healing is to help others who have also been disempowered and assaulted, to hold space for them to find their voices and reclaim their power, as a way to prevent both myself and them from getting sick.

Sexual assault is only too common in our society. 1 in 3 women  are subjected to it. Our society does not have a container to protect, support or empower those who have been assaulted. Consequently, we have to bear these wounds alone. For women (and men) whose boundaries are violated, not speaking of this and not having a safe space to emote feels like being trapped in solitary confinement. This has always been considered the worst form of punishment. When left here alone, parts of the psyche begin to die off, and these dead zones spread like cracks traveling through glass and shut down healthy parts of the psyche that nurture and facilitate creativity, joy, and the animating principle that offers vitality and meaning to our life force.

This occurs as the result of adaptations we are conditioned to endure and live from. Adapting to our environment is an imperative that keeps us alive. It is associated with the fight-and-flight response, which certainly ensures survival. But adaptations to being mistreated or assaulted occur due to the absence of safe space for victims to express their shaming secrets. If when these secrets are revealed and are met with denial, discomfort or silence, the victim will have no choice but to adapt to what they experienced. In fact, very often victims of these crimes are pathologized. An example of this would be when the subject is changed as the victim attempts to tell their story. Denial is not uncommon for family members who remark that the victim may be exaggerating or confabulating their experience; this again, places them on the defensive. A common expectation is they will ‘get over’ what happened to them to maintain the status quo and normalize the closed system of the family’s dynamics. Many just look the other way, participating in the normalization of violence, reinforcing unhealthy adaptation by the victim.

A core context that Dr. Carl Jung explored was one of bringing one’s shadow to consciousness, what can also be termed as ‘shining the light in the darkness’. Without cleaning up our closets and telling our secrets, no real transformation can occur. Without transformation, there can be no hope for healing, liberation or restoration of health. When violations steep inside the psyche for too long, they gather energy in the shadow and begin to choke off a sense of meaning. Feeling function is impacted and the predatory parts of the psyche grow larger.

In one way, I am relieved that we have arrived at a time where the truth is beginning to rise up, and the need for authenticity is replacing unhealthy adaptation. The authentic Self sooner or later will begin to stir in the personal and collective psyche and the Feminine Principle will claim Her rightful place in the world. This process is what is currently underway. A cleansing and clearing are occurring which can only be done through honoring the truth of our experiences. Our culture must transform to one that stops normalizing the status quo. We must value what is authentic rather than illusory, balanced rather than patriarchal, respectful rather than misogynistic, truthful rather than secretive, and open rather than closed. In medicine we know that when an infection festers, it can become gangrenous and life-threatening It needs to be lanced and drained to allow the body to heal. This mechanism applies to the psyche as well.

This is also the first healthy step towards transformation.

As these stories of sexual assault began to break, my own wounds have begun to stir. As a person who is deeply committed to attending to my inner life, even I am experiencing renewed pain as collective truth-telling is releasing trapped shame and the horrific truth of my own experiences that have not seen the light of day for years. Yes, #MeToo.

As I break the cultural barriers of remaining silent and keeping secrets as well as being conditioned to adapt rather than to speak the truth, I find myself emerging as a part of a tribe of truth tellers who are rising up with the knowing that the time to heal has finally arrived.

I am hopeful that society will hold an authentic and safe space for those of us in need of it, so we can once and for all, end the cycle of unhealthy adaptation and normalization of abuse. Instead, we must speak our truth with the hope and intention of transforming the personal and collective shadow.

I am hopeful that this is the beginning of our reclamation of the Feminine Principle, much needed in our world right now to restore health and balance.

May 2018 be the year we begin our return to authenticity, truth, and transformation, thus creating a healthier and more connected society.

 

Amen

 

©Jan2018 Kalpana (Rose) M. Kumar M.D., CEO and Medical Director, The Ommani Center for Integrative Medicine, Pewaukee, WI.  Website: www.ommanicenter.com    Author of Becoming Real: Reclaiming Your Health in Midlife. 2011, 2014 Medial Press

 

Links:

1)http://www.washingtonexaminer.com/the-metoo-movement-isnt-as-simple-as-you-think/article/2644186

2)http://www.cnn.com/2013/06/20/health/global-violence-women/index.html

3)https://www.amazon.com/Women-Who-Run-Wolves-Archetype/dp/0345409876

4)http://web.pdx.edu/~cbcm/CFS410U/FamilySystemsTheory.pdf

5)https://academyofideas.com/2015/12/carl-jung-and-the-shadow-the-hidden-power-of-our-dark-side/

6)https://ommanicenter.com/becoming-real/

7)https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/the-fix/wp/2017/12/07/the-marginalized-voices-of-the-metoo-movement/?utm_term=.4c77ae3994cb

What Happened to the Spirit of Christmas?

 

Do you remember as recently as two decades ago how magical the holidays felt? I remember feeling an energy in the air. It wafted everywhere, in the streets, among people, even in stores. I called it ‘The Spirit of Christmas.’ Over the past many years, as we have become more progress and material-centric, that magical feeling, that ‘spirit’, has dissipated. Unless we make a conscious effort to incorporate it, it eludes us. Even then, it does not feel the way it used to.  The superficial feeling of the collective container feels out of alignment with the sacred energy we once cherished during the holiday season.

What happened to the ‘spirit’ of Christmas?  

As a physician, I have seen tens of thousands of people who have become sick due to the loss of meaning in their lives. Illness is merely a symbolic expression of the lack of this precise meaning. We have rejected the symbolic language of our body and replaced it with terms used mostly for war.  We say ‘our body betrays us,’ but our body never relates to us through betrayal. Our body only delivers us a precise message through symptoms. Our work is to understand the meaning behind these messages.  If we lack symbolic language, we fail to capture meaning and are left with merely our current language of fixing and war orientation. This is very common in healthcare today.  

The body is wise. It carries within it the ability to heal. This can be evoked when we seek to understand the meaning beneath our symptoms. I call this our ‘healing code’. Fixing symptoms is not the same as healing them.  With symbolic language, we can understand the precise causes underneath our symptoms and our probability of physical healing increases. In addition, life grows richer and more meaningful.  This perspective requires consciousness.  I seek this level of depth in all aspects of my life.  I call it the ‘spirit’ of my experience.  It has offered me healing, resilience, and assistance in widening the context of my experience of life, even in times of great suffering.

Over the past few decades, our society has moved further away from the path of meaning than ever before. Meaning is elusive and can only be accessed through intent. It is at the heart of the Feminine Principle, what Jung described (1) as the ‘Self’, the Soul or the ‘being’ state in both men and women. This is where our feelings lie.  Feelings are connectors to the Soul.  The ego and the rational mind is in the realm of the Masculine Principle.  It focuses on ‘doing’.  Our state of being must be balanced by ‘doing’ for us to feel whole. While living this way, we are both productive and creative. Resilience is a by-product of this balance. In this place of balance, both product and process are honored and valued.

Our society has assigned a disproportionate amount of value to money.  Money is a by-product of efficiency. Corporations look for ways to short-circuit process for efficiency, in order to generate profit. Today, a corporation’s success is only measured by its degree of profit.  People are seen merely as commodities for this agenda.  Their process is ignored.  They are deceived into aligning with these values that violate their own. This destroys their sense of meaning.  The corporations of Healthcare and Education are no exceptions to this way of functioning.  Physicians, patients, teachers, and students are sacrificed in the name of efficiency. The main goal of these corporations is product.  It is a mistaken assignment of value.  When process is short-circuited, the spirit of a vocation is cut off. We have all felt this. This is the root of work stress. This is where creativity no longer flows, and the sacred begins to die. This is also at the root of most of our illnesses today.   It is where the Feminine Principle has been sacrificed. Our bodies simply inform us of this through our symptoms. We are the one’s betraying it, not the other way around, as we have been led to believe.  

The spirit of Christmas is no different. Our feelings affect the collective. When we align with corporate values of materialism we cut ourselves off from the spirit of the season. We lose sight of what Christmas means. The sacred is replaced with the mundane and profane. Economy replaces community, materialism replaces feeling.

We must re-member the meaning of the holiday season. We must align with what is sacred. My husband and I recently decided to gift each other with experiences rather than stuff. We are no longer wrapping presents, using the holidays to support the economy or align with the stream of efficiency and product orientation. Our time is spent connecting with what is sacred – simplifying, minimizing, cooking, being, walking in nature, greeting the sunrise, practicing self-care. The Feminine is slow and deep. It restores our feeling of connection and comfort, health, and balance. We have decided to celebrate Christmas in a way that connects us with ancient wisdom (2) that our ancestors honored for over 25,000 years. The spirit of the ‘birth of the sun’ which is a metaphor for self-realization, enlightenment, and consciousness, is what this holiday is truly about.  Cultivating the sacred essence of this time is more important to us than any materialism that accompanies it. This is a time for reflection, for taking inner inventory, for purification and a re-commitment to continued consciousness.

I invite you to reflect on the meaning of this holiday season and to dive deep into the sacred essence of it. How can you participate in reviving the spirit of Christmas without getting caught up in efficiency or productivity at the cost of Soul/Self?  How can you reconnect to the Feminine values of sacredness and being, community and connection, commitment to process, and a more conscious life?

Maybe this Christmas can be a new beginning, a new tradition for us; one of renewal of our true values that are sacred and align us with our true nature, not product oriented corporations. Maybe together we can breathe new life into this season and awaken its sacred spirit, by honoring the sacred Feminine.  Maybe this can be the beginning of a spiritual renewal, a connection to the commitment and endurance required for transformation and a revival of the importance of community.

May you have a sacred Holiday.

(1)https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/9246929

(2)https://belsebuub.com/articles/the-spiritual-meaning-of-the-winter-solstice

©Dec 2017 Kalpana (Rose) M. Kumar M.D., CEO and Medical Director, The Ommani Center for Integrative Medicine, Pewaukee, WI. Website: www.ommanicenter.com Author of Becoming Real: Reclaiming Your Health in Midlife. 2011, 2014 Medial Press

Success versus Fulfillment

All I have is a voice

To undo the folded lie

The romantic lie in the brain

In the lie of authority

Whose buildings grope the sky…

We must love one another or die

~W.H. Auden

 

Last week, a patient of mine asked me if I knew how Google rated me by the number of stars next to my name. She told me that Google did not give me five stars. I was surprised at her evaluation of me through the eyes of the ‘corporate standard’.  I asked her what her definition of success was.  She didn’t answer.  I told her, in my opinion, there was a big difference between success and fulfillment.  One can have both, but it is vitally important to be certain that one does not evaluate one’s worth through externally defined (patriarchal) ‘standards’ at the cost of fulfillment.  These standards are meaningless and without exception have failed to align people with fulfillment, meaning, and self-worth.  Besides, there is strong evidence of a poor correlation (1) between online physician ratings and the quality of care they provide.

How many people work in meaningless jobs to achieve a patriarchally defined standard of living?  The collective consciousness in our society has been born out of patriarchal values.  Its measure of success is defined by accumulated wealth, materialism, and the ability to adapt and comply with patriarchal principles without question.   Successful physicians are defined by our society as people who live in large homes, drive name brand cars, have full waiting rooms with sick patients, and are viewed as ‘team players’ by corporate health care.  When asked if they feel fulfilled by their work, a majority would say they don’t.(2)  Physician burnout is rising with the rate of depression and addiction (3) at an all-time high. (4) Sixty-nine percent of physicians with addiction problems revealed they used addictive substances to relieve stress and emotional pain.  

Nearly two decades ago I left the corporate medical system to create meaningful work for myself, and to serve my patients authentically.  For me, meaning as a physician included (and still does) the highest standard of care in medical expertise along with a deep commitment to restoring the health and wholeness through a context that deepens and enriches my patients lives.  As you can imagine, I do not see as many patients per day as employed physicians are required to, given the time it takes to work in this manner.  Consequently, I am able to take the time to bear witness to my patient’s lives and help them create a course for regaining their health and living more consciously. I take the time to have meaningful relationships with my patients.  

I made a conscious choice to sacrifice a large salary and benefits package offered by corporate health care for a practice that offers me a deep sense of meaning and fulfillment. I define my success as the restoration of physical, emotional, and mental health in my patients, not by merely covering their symptoms, but through the hard work of deep exploration of the cause(s) of their suffering, as well as by being their advocate, committed to their health and wholeness. Before embarking on this life’s path as a physician, I had to organize my priorities around what I felt held the deepest value for me, runaway profits or a commitment to my vocation.  By choosing the latter, I not only created a meaningful working life but a sustainable business which is debt free.

Imagine what our lives would be like if we all chose to work from a framework of love and meaning.  Our evaluation of success would not merely be based on the rational standards of patriarchy, we are imprinted to normalize.  The older we get, and the closer we move towards death, and the more we need to question what we have organized our sense of success or fulfillment around.  Does it feel aligned with our Soul’s calling or do we define our success from the society’s standards?  Have we compromised our sense of meaning for these so-called standards?

I believe much of our inner work in this life on Earth is about asking these very questions.  These are actually some of the questions that underlie many of our world’s religious systems.   We must ask these questions every day and live into the answers as Rainer Maria Rilke (5) so aptly stated.  It takes courage and sacrifice to live this way.  It is difficult to live this way.  It requires saying ‘yes’ to the suffering of transformation,(6) to leave the ways defined by society behind and to live from an alignment with our truth.  Many of us who have made this choice may not receive a ‘5 star’ review by the corporate measuring stick, but in the final analysis, it is our sense of fulfillment that keeps us and our patient’s health.  I believe with all my heart, that this standard is it the highest and most sacred one to live from.  

In the words of the Jungian analyst James Hollis:  “To become a person does not necessarily mean to be well adjusted, well adapted, approved of by others. It means to become who you are. We are meant to become more eccentric, more peculiar, more odd.  We are not meant just to fit in.  We are here to be different.  We are here to be the individual.”

Links:

(1)http://www.modernhealthcare.com/article/20170911/NEWS/170919992

(2)https://www.staffcare.com/physician-job-satisfaction-declining-new-survey-reveals/

(3)https://emedicine.medscape.com/article/806779-overview

(4)https://www.thedailybeast.com/american-doctors-are-killing-themselves-and-no-one-is-talking-about-it

(5)https://www.goodreads.com/quotes/717-be-patient-toward-all-that-is-unsolved-in-your-heart

(6)http://www.pacificapost.com/depth-psychological-approaches-to-suffering

Earth, Wind and Fire

 

This past month has shown us the power of the elements and our relative smallness in their wake.  With all the hurricanes, earthquakes, and fires in our country and around the world, many have experienced a tremendous loss of life and home. In these past few months we have all had the opportunity to gain perspective through these natural disasters. Anyone who has suffered a grave loss through a crisis or a life threatening illness will tell you that the hidden ‘gift’ offered by their experience was a shift in perspective and a deepened sense of meaning.  Meaning is intrinsic to all of us and shears away the extrinsic value of materialism.  Moving through a crisis requires us to align with our courage, bravery, strength, resilience, integrity, and community.

For me, midlife heralded enormous loss.  I remember praying hard and deep for months and years after my husband left me 12 years ago for another. My life had been decimated by a ‘hurricane’ that ravaged everything I was identified with as ‘me’. I lost my family, my savings, and nearly The Ommani Center and my home. I was left with massive acquired debt and a broken spirit, massive trauma, an inner and outer life in shambles.

I was on my knees, crying, wailing, non-stop for weeks and months, not knowing how I would make it, what I could do, ‘what I did to deserve this.’ A deep voice from within said, “Stop. These are not the right questions”. There are NO questions right now. Right now is a time of trusting in your resilience, your true nature, your essence, your deepest Soul-self that needs nothing more than tending. THIS IS TIME OF COMPLETE SURRENDER”.

This is what I feel we need to do in response to the ravage that Mother Nature has left in her wake. Her power is much greater than ours, by infinite proportions. We must gain perspective through this time and regain our reverence for the elements, the power, wisdom, and strength of the Natural Order of life. Often, life offers us its ‘awful grace’ as a call to transformation and reevaluation; to assess what is important and what holds truth and meaning.

Maybe the ‘lesson’ and the meaning in all of what is happening is to help us reconnect to our true nature, to our hearts, to compassion, and to awaken to the strength of community.  We must surrender our values that have been extrinsically identified with materialism, isolation, and disconnection.  There is no greater teacher than loss to show us that the manner in which we have been living is unsustainable.

We will rebuild, re-connect, re-awaken, re-new, and re-birth what the life/death/life cycle has brought to us time and again and especially in the days, weeks, months, and years that follow. We must collaborate through this.  Maybe this is the course correction we must undertake. We as a country and as a world are connected deeply with one another, regardless of political party, race, color, gender, or religion. We must awaken to this reality.

Let us seize this opportunity to achieve meaning and transformation.

We must rise like the phoenix from the ashes.

  ©Oct 2017 Kalpana (Rose) M. Kumar M.D., CEO and Medical Director, The Ommani Center for Integrative Medicine,

  Pewaukee, WI.  Website: www.ommanicenter.com Author of Becoming Real: Reclaiming Your Health in Midlife.

  2011, 2014

Harvesting Our Truth

What happens to a person in your presence is more a matter of who you are than what you know

~Anonymous

Veritas, the Roman Goddess of Truth is said to be difficult to find. She is elusive and hides at the bottom of a holy well. She is the daughter of Saturn, the God of Time and Virtus, the Goddess of Bravery. Veritas can be likened to the truth of who we are; our True Nature or authentic self, by nature, elusive. It requires time, bravery, courage, and hard work to first uncover and live from this part of ourselves, a veritable life’s work.

The season of harvest can also be a time for making a commitment to ‘harvest’ our authentic self. This form of inner work is what Carl Jung termed individuation’. It is the most important, powerful and meaningful work in our lives to which we must consciously attend. I believe it is singularly why we are alive, and the only process that can make our lives intrinsically luminous and meaningful.  

In our society, we have confused the superficiality of our persona for who we really are. We have confused our identity with our roles, jobs, possessions, and friends.  When any of these fall away we may feel stressed, depressed or anxious. In fact, every part of our life except our authenticity is fleeting. If we are not aligned with this, we are faced with the threat of experiencing continual anguish due to the fleeting nature of our external reality.

Every time we cross a threshold that marks the life/death/life process, such as a birthday, graduation, relocation, marriage, empty-nest, retirement, loss, sickness, or death we are passing through a portal for individuation.  

Our culture does not have a context to mark these thresholds in more than a superficial way. Although we celebrate them, we do not assimilate the depth of their meaning into the fabric of our being. This is one of the reasons why people are lonely in our society, and why there is a disconnected feeling in our collective consciousness. We lack the consciousness of acknowledging the potential for transformation that these thresholds can facilitate. Each is an opportunity for aligning with our authentic self.   

In the past year, many of my patients have suffered extreme losses. The deaths of loved ones have been the most painful. Their sorrow has been compounded by the fact that they have had to travel the grief spiral alone.  They were left alone in their sorrow, overwhelmed by their emotions. I believe they needed to be held by others in their time of loss (as we all do). They were seeking context and meaning through these thresholds. Attempting to search for this alone can be overwhelming.  

The danger in not having a context or container through thresholds is getting stuck in grief.  It can be replete with anxiety, depression, sleeplessness, anger, hopelessness, or addictive behaviors.  A prescription drug cannot provide the comfort of another human being or a context for meaning. In fact, it can actually stunt our process and arrest the possibility of transforming through the threshold. Sadly, it is one of the only solutions that traditional medicine offers while grieving. We all know that this solution does not work, but it’s unfortunately normalized.  It is a meaningless substitute for the power of community and compassion.

Facebook and other social media (1) platforms have become global ways to show snippets of our persona. We are flooded by these snippets every day and think these snippets reflect who people really are.  Others seem better, luckier, more blessed, and wealthier than us. This trances us into confusing persona from authenticity. Social media can be a platform to share the truth, but this is not what is happening (2). It is actually isolating people further from each other.  It is debasing what is truly important and adding superficiality to our collective consciousness.

Individuation is hard work.  It feels like a death because the act of discriminating who we really are requires a death of who we think we are. Sometimes we are so vested in the latter, (our conditioned or adapted self) that we fight against transforming. Many organize their lives around the adapted self.  It often takes a crisis to create the portal for breakthrough.

It is time for us to create a container to offer assistance through the thresholds of life.  Our greatest impediment to not acknowledging the need to individuate is how we are conditioned to normalize the value we place on the persona. The truth of our True Nature, our authentic self, is elusive like the goddess Veritas. Eastern wisdom acknowledges the importance of living from here, and in midlife, we feel an urgency to seek a way back to this place within. Sometimes this is catalyzed by what we call a ‘midlife crisis’ when an illness, a loss, a divorce, or a trauma changes us unalterably and activates the seeker in us who seeks only for what is meaningful.  We must follow the truth that lives inside of us, beneath the expectations and projections of society. Living from here is also where our integrity lies.  

The process of individuation may be the precise antidote for our ailing time.

When we recognize the value of becoming authentic, we become seekers of our truth. We look for signs, recognize synchronicities (3) and look for guidance. We begin to live consciously in a state of ‘awakeness’. We slough off toxic relationships, meaningless jobs, attachments to materialism, and begin to live from joy, contentment, and meaning.  We also become authentically available to each other. This has intrinsic value. It is a powerful buffer from stress and evokes resilience. To access this authentic place requires consciousness.  It serves as a bridge between our egoic self and our True Nature.

So next time you feel overwhelmed by the state of the world, or stressed by events that lack intrinsic meaning, bring consciousness to who and what you authentically are and create an intention to align with your authentic self.

Discovering your True Nature will be your harvest and I promise you, you will never feel alone, or leave another alone again in their life’s journey.

Links:

  1. https://www.forbes.com/sites/glennllopis/2013/03/11/7-ways-to-value-yourself-beyond-social-media/#660a33b47b67
  2. https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/nurturing-self-compassion/201703/mental-health-and-the-effects-social-media
  3. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Synchronicity

 

©Sept 2017 Kalpana (Rose) M. Kumar M.D., CEO and Medical Director, The Ommani Center for Integrative Medicine, Pewaukee, WI.  Website: www.ommanicenter.com Author of Becoming Real: Reclaiming Your Health in Midlife. 2011, 2014 Medial Press

Is Our Health Crisis Really a Crisis of Consciousness?

 

It’s another day at the office.  Sue, a 58 year old postmenopausal female patient wants to know why she has mental fog and a thickening waist.  Her skin is breaking out, hot flashes awaken her every night at 3 am leaving her tired and depressed for the day.  “I never thought getting old was going to be so hard,” she says.  She is no different than millions of Americans whose aging bodies are misshapen and minds are clouded.  Autoimmune diseases, obesity, arthritis, cancer, heart disease, and dementia are on the rise.  Aging is not meant to be this hard.  How we treat our bodies is a key to aging well.  

We have been taught to believe that the body degenerates with age.  This may be the case, but Americans are ‘degenerating’ at warp speed with a growing number of symptoms we have normalized as connected with aging.  These symptoms are not a normal part of healthy aging.  In fact, telomere (1) research shows that even some adolescent children in America have the cell age of a 40-year-old.  What is common in both young and chronologically older Americans who experience degenerative symptoms is an unhealthy lifestyle.  Processed food and drink high in sugar and chemicals, regular alcohol intake (2) and a sedentary lifestyle are all ingredients for rapid aging.  Combine this with the toxic environment abundant in pesticides, (3) hormone disruptors (4), and carcinogens (5) it’s a wonder we make it to 50.  

I liken the human body to a ‘bio-machine’.  It is made up of trillions of cells that communicate with one another.  They require clean food to send clear messages and clean receptors to receive input that tells them what to do.  These comprise the ‘systems’ that run the body.  The abundant flora (6) that inhabits our gut runs the bio-machine like an intelligence factory.  It generates neurotransmitters that support and maintain the brain and nervous system. It also metabolizes hormones to help them work properly and shields the bloodstream from big proteins that turn on the immune system and inflammatory mechanisms when incorrectly filtered by the intestine.  What we put in our mouth has direct and long-term effects on these mechanisms.  When out of sync and dysregulated, they wreak havoc on the body and the mind.  Most of us have heard of the term, ‘leaky gut’.  This basically means the gut leaks digested proteins into the bloodstream that are not supposed to be filtered due to a disrupted bacterial biome in the intestine.  This disruption occurs with antibiotics, processed foods, food coloring, artificial sweeteners, synthetic medications, and also with stress and trauma.  This results in a moderate amount of inflammation affecting not only the body but the brain.  Leaky gut has been found to be the cause for autoimmune (7) and inflammatory disorders, food, and chemical sensitivities as well as a key causative mechanism in dementia (8) and even cancer (9).  When the immune system attacks unwelcome proteins in the bloodstream continuously due to leaky gut (10), it becomes dysregulated like a misfiring machine, resulting in chronic inflammation and brain fog, some of the symptoms that my patient Sue presented with.  

Fortunately, many poor lifestyle choices when corrected can reverse many of the diseases that destroy the quality of life of most Americans, eventually leading to their death.  

As we age, our bodies become more sensitive.  They crave balance, self-care, exercise, and last but not least, healthy organic food.  Creating this kind of environment for our bodies requires us to engage conscious intention and make conscious healthy choices.  When we do, a majority of chronic symptoms we have been told are degenerative can begin reversing within weeks.  Certain types of detoxification regimens can clean hormone disruptors from our receptors, restoring cellular communication and function, as well as aid in the restoration of our gut biome.  A well-balanced probiotic is an essential part of this restoration regimen.  (Not all probiotics can do this. Only consult a health care provider experienced in this field).   A plant based diet has been shown to increase oxygenation to tissues and including the heart within two weeks of starting it as shown by Dr. Esselstyn in his heart disease reversal study. (11)

The standard American diet (12) our society has normalized has proven to not work.  It accelerates degeneration and destroys the quality of life of most Americans who partake in it.  When my patients bring consciousness to their lifestyle choices and adopt those that have been scientifically proven to work, they are amazed as to how much better they feel. Their mental fog, emotional and mental symptoms, as well as skin disorders, begin to heal within weeks.  Their bodies begin to reshape, shedding excess pounds.  The happy results of my patient Sue’s lifestyle changes were no different. Within a week, her health transformed and 90 percent of her symptoms simply vanished.  Through her own experience, she discovered that when she engaged her previous unhealthy choices, her symptoms returned.

Our country’s consciousness is not focused on health.  It is focused instead on weight loss and quick fix diets that have been proven to only work for the short run, if at all.  If we can learn from history, and adopt lifestyles that have been proven to work,(13) we can begin the process of applying conscious choices to how we live.  Believe me, as an Internist, I was never taught that anything could reverse chronic illnesses.  My 30 years of clinical observation, has proven this to be faulty logic.  

Maybe it’s time we start applying what has already been shown to work (through scientific evidence) to our lifestyle choices rather than engaging ‘quick fix’ techniques for short term gain.  After all, we all want to age with an abundance of energy, vitality, and good health.  Maybe it’s time we transformed our thinking from degeneration to regeneration, and aligned consciousness to achieve this goal.

Our access to good health may actually be only a few conscious choices away.

Links:

  1. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3370421/
  2. https://www.cancer.gov/about-cancer/causes-prevention/risk/alcohol/alcohol-fact-sheet
  3. https://www.niehs.nih.gov/health/topics/agents/pesticides/index.cfm
  4. https://www.niehs.nih.gov/health/topics/agents/endocrine/index.cfm
  5. https://www.niehs.nih.gov/health/materials/cancer_and_the_environment_508.pdf
  6. https://ommanicenter.com/power-healthy-gut/
  7. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/22109896
  8. https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2017/02/170210085532.htm
  9. https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2014/04/140404140407.htm
  10. http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/290747.php
  11. https://www.bing.com/videos/search?q=forks+over+knives+nitrous+oxide&view=detail&mid=A74C69229770A8C9C3D3A74C69229770A8C9C3D3&FORM=VIRE
  12. http://www.fundamentalsofhealth.com/sad1.htm
  13. https://bluezones.com/live-longer-better/#section-1

 

©Aug 2017 Kalpana (Rose) M. Kumar M.D., CEO and Medical Director, The Ommani Center for Integrative Medicine, Pewaukee, WI.  Website: www.ommanicenter.com Author of Becoming Real: Reclaiming Your Health in Midlife. 2011, 2014 Medial Press